How long have I been here? How long have I been crumpled in this path, injured? I lost track of time in my pain. I tried to get up, but that only led to a relapse in my injury. How long till I can crawl? How long till I can stand or even walk? They say it takes time. Time and rest for injuries to heal, for the tears to repair and the scar tissue to build. How long until I can run . . . or will I ever run again?
Some injuries last for a short time, but others are so serious they leave permanent damage. The body may develop scar tissue, but it will never be the same. It is forever altered. I wonder how serious my injury is? Will I be able to walk without a limp? Will I be able to run the miles with the same turn-over and stride I once had? Or will my injury just simply be marked with the reminder of some scar tissue?
I sit in this path waiting for healing, waiting for the pain to subside and the scar tissue to bind. I don't know how long its been or how long I'm supposed to rest. I don't know if I want to find out how serious my injury is. What if I relapse? What if it hurts as I begin to walk? What if I can't ever run the same again? What if the path ahead brings another injury? Do I even want to run anymore?
Running: 10 miles (lost track of all the miles I didn't record)
Makes me sad to think of you struggling to rise but I know you are a strong person and I know that your God is stronger yet. He will lift you up, he will not leave you forsaken, he will be found by those who seek him. He is our mighty God who leads us by the hand. See ya on the path to rejoicing soon Sis. Dad
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